[[It's Just Me]]

Saturday, April 24

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Bagi seekor anjing, seorang tuan atau nyonya untuk dikasihi, dihargai, dan dipatuhi adalah kebutuhan yang mutlak. Ribuan ekor anjing berusaha menunjukkan kasih mereka dengan cara menghambur, meloncat, menjilat, dan mengibaskan ekornya disaat tuannya pulang ke rumah. Bagi orang lain yang melihat, itu adalah salah satu bukti nyata dari kasih seekor anjing.

Tetapi ujian dari kasih yang sebenarnya adalah ketika anjing tersebut mempunyai kesempatan untuk keluar rumah dari pagar yang terbuka lebar di saat pemiliknya tidak sadar.
Apakah anjing itu akan pulang kembali atau tidak, tiada yang tahu juga
Kasih yang sejati justru di buktikan ketika pintu terbuka, dan anjing itu tetap berada dalam jarak yang dapat dilihat oleh pemiliknya. Karena tuannya adalah segalanya bagi anjing itu.

AlexiA...shakened at 4/24/2004 07:24:00 PM

Monday, April 19

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RAHASIA KECIL KEBAHAGIAAN

Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah memusatkan perhatian pada kebaikan dalam diri orang lain.
Sebab, hidup bagaikan lukisan: Untuk melihat keindahan lukisan yang terbaik sekalipun, lihatlah di bawah sinar yang terang, bukan di tempat yang tertutup dan gelap sama halnya sebuah gudang.

Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah tidak menghindari kesulitan.
Dengan memanjat bukit, bukan meluncurinya, kaki seseorang tumbuh menjadi kuat.

Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah melakukan segala sesuatu bagi orang lain.
Air yang tak mengalir tidak berkembang. Namun, air yang mengalir dengan bebas selalu segar dan jernih.

Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah belajar dari orang lain, dan bukan mencoba mengajari mereka.
Semakin Anda menunjukkan seberapa banyak Anda tahu, semakin orang lain akan mencoba menemukan kekurangan dalam pengetahuan Anda. Mengapa bebek disebut "bodoh"? Karena terlalu banyak bercuap-cuap.

Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah kebaikan hati: memandang orang lain sebagai anggota keluarga besar Anda.
Sebab, setiap ciptaan adalah milik Anda. Kita semua adalah ciptaan Tuhan yang satu.

Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah tertawa bersama orang lain, sebagai sahabat, dan bukan menertawakan mereka, sebagai hakim.

Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah tidak sombong.
Bila Anda menganggap mereka penting, Anda akan memiliki sahabat ke manapun Anda pergi. Ingatlah bahwa musang yang paling besar akan mengeluarkan bau yang paling menyengat.

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Kebahagiaan datang kepada mereka yang memberikan cintanya secara bebas, yang tidak meminta orang lain mencintai mereka terlebih dahulu. Bermurah hatilah seperti mentari yang memancarkan sinarnya tanpa terlebih dahulu bertanya apakah orang-orang patut menerima kehangatannya.

Kebahagiaan berarti menerima apapun yang datang, dan selalu mengatakan kepada diri sendiri "Aku bebas dalam diriku". Kebahagiaan berarti membuat orang lain bahagia. Padang rumput yang penuh bunga membutuhkan pohon-pohon di sekelilingnya, bukan bangunan-bangunan beton yang kaku. Kelilingilah padang hidup Anda dengan kebahagiaan.

Kebahagiaan berasal dari menerima orang lain sebagaimana adanya; nyatanya menginginkan mereka bukan sebagaimana adanya. Betapa akan membosankan hidup ini jika setiap orang sama. Bukankah taman pun akan tampak janggal bila semua bunganya berwarna ungu?

Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah menjaga agar hati Anda terbuka bagi orang lain, dan bagi pengalaman-pengalaman hidup. Hati laksana pintu sebuah rumah. Cahaya matahari hanya dapat masuk bilamana pintu rumah itu terbuka lebar.

Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah memahami bahwa persahabatan jauh lebih berharga daripada barang; lebih berharga daripada mengurusi urusan sendiri; lebih berharga daripada bersikukuh pada kebenaran dalam perkara-perkara yang tidak prinsipiil.

Renungkan setiap rahasia yang ada di dalamnya.
Rasakan apa yang dikatakannya.

*source : unknown*

AlexiA...shakened at 4/19/2004 05:45:00 PM

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Lagi ngidam Mini I-POD

AlexiA...shakened at 4/19/2004 05:41:00 PM

Sunday, April 18

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Just Another Beautiful Article..

When, in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks, and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out... E n o u g h !

Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on.

And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears, and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening.

You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon.

You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella, and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter), and that any guarantee of " happily ever after" must begin with you; and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are.....and that's OK.
(They are entitled to their own views and opinions.)

And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself; and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say, and that not everyone will always be there for you; and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own, and to take care of yourself; and in the process, a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers...and you begin to accept people as they are, and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties; and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You realize that much of the way you view yourself and the world around you is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all that you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, and how much you should weigh; what you should wear and where you should shop, and what you should drive; how and where you should live, and what you should do for a living; who you should sleep with, who you should marry, and what you should expect of a marriage; the importance of having and raising children, or what you owe your parents.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing, and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with; and in the process you learn to go with your instincts.

You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing; and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by-gone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world... and that you can't teach a pig to sing.

You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance of setting boundaries, and learning to say NO.

You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship.

You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be.

You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love... and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms...just to make you happy.

And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely. And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10, and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up."

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK.... And that it is your right to want things and to ask for the things that you want...and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.

You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect; and you won't settle for less. And, you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his/her touch... and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.

And you learn that your body really is your temple, and you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise.

You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest.

And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn, that for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve... and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help.

You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time. FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it, and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms.

And you learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve; and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things.

You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state -- the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you, and poison the universe that surrounds you.

You learn to admit when you are wrong and to building bridges instead of walls.

You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself; and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever, settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a wind chime outside your window........ so you can listen to the wind. And you makeit a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand; you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

taken from: ~monica~

AlexiA...shakened at 4/18/2004 09:12:00 PM

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2 alasan kenapa gue harus bangun pagi ini:

1. gue belum mati
2. gue masih hidup

AlexiA...shakened at 4/18/2004 08:39:00 PM

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tidak .. tidak mungkin lagi menangis .. sudah terlalu banyak airmata yang terbuang
tidak .. tidak mungkin lagi berhenti .. sudah separuh jalan terbentang
tidak .. tidak boleh lagi berkhayal .. sudah terlalu banyak realita yang pahit

AlexiA...shakened at 4/18/2004 08:37:00 PM

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set dahhhhhhhhh
aje gileee capeknya olalabeybeh
mandi dulu aja ahhh

AlexiA...shakened at 4/18/2004 08:29:00 PM

Sunday, April 11

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Once I let someone hurt me, he will do it again and again. Maybe he wont sap me again, but he did this, and maybe he will do another creative method to hurt me. The worst part is, I just can't get myself out from this problem

AlexiA...shakened at 4/11/2004 11:33:00 AM

Saturday, April 10

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Gue nggak tau apa yg ada di otak elo ...
gue jg ga tau knp kok kek gitu... Lo tuh selalu aja nipu gue
Nggak apa sih... biar Tuhan yg bales elo ajah...
Gue bukannya nggak tau lo tipu mulu... Tapi... gue diemin aja
mungkin gue memang BODOH tapi gue NGGAK IDEOT
gue ga yakin lo bakal menyesali perbuatan elo... tapi KARMA bakal bicara...
inget itu baik2!

AlexiA...shakened at 4/10/2004 11:27:00 AM

Tuesday, April 6

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I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me
Betrayed
I feel so
Enslaved
I really tried

AlexiA...shakened at 4/06/2004 08:24:00 PM

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I'm feeling mean today

Not lost, not blown away

Just irritated and quite hated

Self control breaks down

Why's everything so tame?

I Like my life insane

I'm fabricating and debating

Who I'm gonna kick around

AlexiA...shakened at 4/06/2004 08:23:00 PM

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berenang..
berakit-rakit ke hulu
berenang-renang ke tepian
bersakit-sakit melulu
bersenang-senangnya kapan??

AlexiA...shakened at 4/06/2004 08:18:00 PM

Monday, April 5

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dasar tuh orang tuh pornoholic minded
hahaha... makanya ngomong tuh sopan dikit.. kayak kaga di sekolahin aja
honestly im still thinking whether he was some psycho like HIM .. or just another type of jerk :P *tersinggung? cuciannn deee looo*
sebelon ngatain orang itu ukur dolo kemampuan elo ...
so kalo merasa otak lo rada2 ga nyampe ngeliat kemampuan gue berbahasa .. atau merasa otak kiri lo kurang berkembang mbok ya cari kamus atau belajar dulu lah getuw :P heoaiheoaieaoiehaoeiahoeaiea

hmm .. sebenernya sih gue udah males bahas soal henry19782002 .. cuma keknya malem ini is a good nite untuk nyela2 deh ya ..
yah basically .. intinya .. pada dasarnya .. sebenarnya .. on the other hand, moreover .. the truth is .. that I DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HIM !.ya sebagai manusia kadang suka sebel aja sih kalo ada org yang ko interfere about my life padahal gue ga kasih dia ijin *gimana bisa gue kasih ijin coba kalo kenal aja ndak :P* heoaiheaoehaoea
dan kenapa gue harus merasa ga peduli dengan dia? banyak alasan .. cuma hal yang paling penting itu would be .. gue merasa dia ga selevel ama gue :)
ok .. im not trying to boast about myself or raise up my dignity here .. ga sama sekali .. tapi jujur gue merasa "JIJIK" even untuk menyamakan diri gue dengan dia .. aihhh .. sapa sih die?
kek dia harus gue pedulikan komennya? heoaiheoaieahoeiaheoaiehaoeiaheoaiehaoeihaeoaea
dari segi apapun he cant beat my competence .. bicara soal level of education .. social background .. or anything :) jadi boleh donk kalo gue nganggep dia ngiri ama gue? toh gue sendiri ga merasa kalo gue perlu iri dengan dia .. :D
i know im pathetic .. tapi sepathetic2nya gue .. gue ga perlu NGATA2IN ORANG PAKE ID LAIN kalo memang mo ajak berantem ya pake id asli lha...dan gue ga perlu untuk mencela2 or interfere others privacy just to get an attention ...
screw u jerk :D

ya sud2 lah .. sayah lagi ga mood untuk mencela2 malam ini ..
and for you .. mr stupidius bastardius .. "drpada lo ol buang2in duit .. mendingan lo nabung buat beli beras :) or belajar supayah pinter lo punya otak"

for u wherever u are, be brave of whatever u have done .. only loser avoid things !

AlexiA...shakened at 4/05/2004 03:07:00 AM

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How Far Can You Go Wiv Yer (Fuckin') Mouth?

Hmph, Dont get me wrong by that title, im not having a terrible mood rite now, but sure i do have something to spill out.
First Of all, i would like to say that i'm great though a lil bit sleepy.
Well, kapan gwe ga ngantuk anyway?
jadi judul postingan gue hari ini doesnt really mean that im pissed off or in the middle of anger, etc.
cuma memang ada beberapa hal yang jadi pemikiran gue last couple of days, karena kemarin itu gue sempet bermasalah dengan satu atau dua omongan orang....

Jujur, if u dont like me, or u guys have any complaints againts me .. i dont really care!
gue bisa nerima kok kalau ada orang ga suka ama gue and melakukan banyak cara untuk makes me feel bad about myself.

Ada beberapa hal, dimana seharusnya sebagai manusia yang berakal budi, berpendidikan, berasal dari keluarga baik2 .. diajar dengan benar, dan punya hati nurani dan atau setidaknya punya OTAK itu bisa mikir, THINK BEFORE U SAY SOMETHING FROM YER MOUTH!ada beberapa hal yang sebaiknya ga elu usik2 .. ada beberapa hal yang gag bole lo orang jadikan bahan ejekan/cacian/makian/whatsoever lah!

jangan gara2 buruk rupa, cermin dibelah lah!

mulut itu seharusnya dijaga!
mo ngomong itu mikir dulu ..
apalagi kalau elu tau ucapan itu bakal membuat orang lain feel angry.
untuk setiap perkataan, ada tempat yang tepat untuk ngucapinnya kan?
if u dont know how to talk properly, u better dont talk at all!

masa maki2 gue pake kata2 kasar di room pakai id lain ... padahal id aslinya tuh henry19782002
padahal nih dia tuh ada di list friend gue loh.
cuma memang susah sih kalo orang di tanya salah gue apa n dia ada dendam apa ke gue .. die kaga ngaku...
eh tapi jelek2in gue gitu... ck ck ck.... yah semua orang di room tau lah gue bukan orang macem itu...

dan ini buat elu
gwe harap elu bisa mikir, apakah ucapan elu itu pada tempatnya atau ga, gue harap elu juga bisa mikir, apakah pantas elu bicara hal-hal seperti itu atau ga, gue yakin elu uda cukup dewasa untuk ga berpikiran serendah dan sepicik itu!

AlexiA...shakened at 4/05/2004 03:00:00 AM