[[It's Just Me]]

Tuesday, September 30

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Quisssssss lagiiiiiii .....
What color are you?
The results isssss

What color are you? (Anime Pictures)
brought to you by Quizilla

AlexiA...shakened at 9/30/2003 10:42:00 PM

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Dapet ini di imelin sama temen gue....kocak en ada benernya juga seh hehehe...well supaya adil, yah emang seh kriteria ini bisa juga ditujuin buat ke cowok hehehhe...

TYPES OF WOMEN

HARD-DISK Woman:
She remembers everything, FOREVER.

RAM Woman:
She forgets about you, the moment you turn her off.

WINDOWS Woman:
Everyone knows that she can't do a thing right,
but no one can live without her.

SCREENSAVER Woman:
She is good for nothing but at least she is fun!

INTERNET Woman:
Difficult to access.

SERVER Woman:
Always busy when you need her.

MULTIMEDIA Woman:
She makes horrible things look beautiful.

CD-ROM Woman:
She is always faster and faster.

E-MAIL Woman:
Every ten things she says, eight are nonsense.

VIRUS Woman:
Also known as "WIFE"; when you are not expecting her, she comes, installs herself and uses all your resources.
If you try to uninstall her you will loose something if you don't try to uninstall her you will be rendered useless...

AlexiA...shakened at 9/30/2003 09:19:00 PM

Sunday, September 28

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Life

I found this quite funny cartoon, check them out

AlexiA...shakened at 9/28/2003 12:33:00 PM

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Your Body Mass

Sometimes I just amazed... kalo liat proporsi tinggi sama berat badan orang (especially tuh sama model2x or artis gitu deh) sering gua liat datanya: tinggi 165cm/berat 45kg ?????????????? apa gak kekurusan tuh? but the strange thing is... kalo diliat di layar kaca or majalah, it seems that they are in a proper shape!

Are you thin, fat or just rite?
How to measure: gua nemu site ini Body Mass Index, caranya gampang banget - tinggal masukin tinggi dan berat badan kamu ke dalam kolom yang ada disitu and press calculate.
If the result is under 20, it means: JUST KEEP EATING...
If the result is between 20 to 24.9, it means: YOU ARE JUST RITE!!!
And if the result is above 24.9, it means: SORRY MAN, PLEASE GET SOME EXCERCISE

So... which one are you?

AlexiA...shakened at 9/28/2003 12:30:00 PM

Saturday, September 27

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menurut elo orang, wajar ga sih ... kalo ada orang pacaran, terus cowonya berani maen fisik kalo berantem ma ceweknya?
wajar ga sih, kalau misalnya lo ribut ama cowo elo, terus cowo elo mulai tereak2 .. maki2 elo, mempermalukan elo di depan umum?
ok .. some people can accept that, but me? DEFINITELY NOT!

cuma gue tau beberapa cowo, yang kalo ribut itu bisa mukul2 ceweknya .. dan gue kenal beberapa orang cewe, yang kalo ngambek itu nggerung2 di depan umum, nangis or histeris kek orang gila di public places ..
kalo baru pacaran aja uda mulai maen fisik .. gimana pas nikah kali ya?
gue sendiri bener2 ga respek ama cowo yang mukul cewe .. ama cowo yang maki2 cewe aja gue ga respek .. gimana mukul?
kalau cowo gue berani mukul gue? liad aja coba

gue sendiri menganalisa beberapa hal yang bisa bikin cowo itu mukul ceweknya:
1. tu cowo emang pada dasarnya sakit jiwa (Baca: psycho)
2. tu cowo merasa dia diatas angin, sehingga walaupun tu cewe digebukin sekalipun tuh cewe bakalan tetep nempel terus ma dia
3. tu cowo dah get what he wants from the girl so she can leave anytime she wants

yah, gue sih prihatin aja ngeliatin nasib cewe2 yang harus menerima penganiayaan (baik fisik maupun mental) dari cowoknya ..
buat gue .. SEGANTENG2nya tuh cowo .. SETAJIR2nya tuh cowo .. SEKEREn2nya tu cowo .. SEBEKEN2nya tu cowo .. SEPINTER2nya tu cowo .. or whatever you named it, itu sama sekali ga worthed
cowo yang mukul cewe itu sama sekali ga worthed untuk dipertahanin ! trust me .. bisa2 lo jadi korban kekerasan .. *hoeQ*

jangankan mukul .. buat gue, gue sendiri GA akan bisa terima, kalau cowo gue tereak2 ngomelin geu di depan umum, gue ga suka dipermalukan .. dan gue pun disisi lain, mencoba untuk ga argue ma dia di depan umum .. persoalan itu sebaiknya diselesaiin berdua, ga usa nangis2 dan tereak2 di public places kan?

AlexiA...shakened at 9/27/2003 11:12:00 PM

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Ughhhh sebel sebel sebel ....
ciaaaaaaat tat tat tat tat... Ugh....
Mo belajal silat dolo ah

AlexiA...shakened at 9/27/2003 03:53:00 PM

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Just A Thought.....

Tadi pagi gue sengaja bangun pagih2...
trus nelpon mantan2 gue (bukan gue genid loh yah...

) Gue cuma mo minta maaf kalau2 gue pernah ada salah ama mereka,itu aja sih sebenernya...
Yah... setiap org kan pernah salah...Walaupun pada dasarnya yg salah itu mereka,ga tau dee pokokna gue mo minta maap ajah dee...

Kan gue memang baik hati

Hihihi

Tapi ada 1 mantan gue yg MENYEBALKAN banged n ga sopan

Ugh... untungna hari ini dia ga aneh2!!
Coba aja berani macem2 ama gue.. Ugh bisa gue

Eh..

baru aja gue dapet e-mail dari temen gue, isinya kek gini :
::At times life is wicked and I just can't see the light. A silver lining sometimes isn't enough to make some wrongs seem right. At times life's unfair and you know it's plain to see. Hey God I know I'm just a dot in this world, have You forgot about me?

Whatever life brings, I've been through everything, and now I'm on my knees again. But I know I must go on. Although I hurt I must be strong, because inside I know that many feel this way. Children don't stop dancing. Believe you can fly away. Away.

Am I hiding in the shadows? Forget the pain and forget the sorrows. Children don't stop dancing. Believe you can fly away.... away. ..

::Those are Scott Stapp and Mark Tremonti's words (of Creed). My words, well, is just the same, speaking from my personal experience in these days: don't give up yet. Just because you can't see the stars, it doesn't mean that they are not up there. Strive a little bit more, my friend, even if you don't know what else to do, keep believing that something will happen today. Never tire of doing what is right.

~Thanks Peter, Tresia, Mike..

Miss all of Ya ~
WISH YOU ALL A VERY NICE WEEKEND!!

AlexiA...shakened at 9/27/2003 03:52:00 PM

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If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes....

Pernah gak kepikir if maybe tomorrow you'd never wake up and see the morning sun? And when your spirit starts to fly away from ur body, suddenly - somehow, you can yell and said "stop! take me back to my body. I still want to do many things, so many things I want to say...." but by that time everything it's just too late...

Tadinya.... gua mau bikin satu cerita, but hmmf moodnya tiba2x raib

AlexiA...shakened at 9/27/2003 03:21:00 PM

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I need a miracle

*7 minutes to 9, sitting on my desk @home....

Tell me what's it gonna take
I'm running out of prayers, Lord
Can't you see I'm helpless
Down here on my knees
I'm begging you please....
There's nothing left for me to do
I need a miracle from you

I'm tired of days that feel like this
When hurt is like a rope
Wrapped around my wrist

I know you're listening
I know it's in your hands
But still I'm out here in the dark
I just don't understand

I know you're tired with plans to keep
off saving someone's life
Or calming stormy seas
But I'm not asking you to bring me back the moon
All I need is a little help that can only come from you

How long
Can I go on this way ?
I need you to plead my case....

~Plus One: "I need a Miracle"~

What if I ask you: "what song suits you best at this moment?"
and my answer is: this song. this song, yes, really fits me right now, right this moment.
*sudden mellow-mood is on*

Permisi.....lagi mau ber mellow2 dulu.... ihikz

AlexiA...shakened at 9/27/2003 03:04:00 PM

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Tutuplah mata
karena tidur harus buta
baringkahlah badan
karena tidur harus tanpa beban

Singkirkan logika
pada tidur dia adalah budak belaka
Lupakan waktu
pada mimpi dia tidak laku

Tidurlah , sayang

~By Nehemia~

AlexiA...shakened at 9/27/2003 01:52:00 AM

Friday, September 26

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Boring

Judul hari ini..... boring a.k.a bosen a.k.a jenuh or pake kerennya aja: bete (ini sebenernya singkatan apa sih?? bad timing?? bad mood?? or what? gw juga gak jelas)

Apa sih yang bikin seseorang sampai mengalami keadaan boring ini?? Gw pikir pasti banyak penyebabnya, bisa rutinitas, kerjaan or masalah yang gak kelar-kelar, suasana or keadaan sekeliling kita yang sama tiap hari sampai ketemu orang yang sama tiap hari (apalagi kalo plus nyebelin)

. Kalau keterusan, gw rasa keadaan ini bisa jadi awal permulaan stress kecil-kecilan sampai akhirnya frustrasi berat. Hmm.., ada yang mau nambahin??

Buat gw, yang bikin gw paling boring itu adalah rutinitas! Sesuatu yang harus dilakukan, mesti dilakukan and sometimes bikin gw jadi bener-bener bete.

Cara mengatasi. (udah kayak abis dari dokter aja, pake ada obatnya segala)
Apa ya? Mungkin banyak yang take two or a day off from all that kind of things that makes them **bored** atau get a vacation or melakukan hal yang simple seperti olahraga, nonton, dengerin musik, baca, bengong, belanja, and apalagi ya??

AlexiA...shakened at 9/26/2003 10:03:00 PM

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When Things Are Not Fun Anymore

I was always enjoyed the morning air, I still do
Took a deep breath under the acasia tree, just to feel its fragance.... I still do
I walked in the rain and smell the scent of the earth as fun as I watched the evening sky.... I still do

But when everything that used to be fun suddenly are not.... by then what should I do?

AlexiA...shakened at 9/26/2003 09:58:00 PM

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TURUT BERDUKA CITA atas meninggalnya papa dari Xiao_Yuan

AlexiA...shakened at 9/26/2003 02:37:00 AM

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iseng2 isi quiz ah....

Your wedding dress will be peach! You are very
sweet-natured and delicate. People admire your
fragile beauty and sugary smile. Your marriage
will be sweetened by your happy passion!

What's your wedding dress color? *pics*
brought to you by Quizilla

AlexiA...shakened at 9/26/2003 12:08:00 AM

Thursday, September 25

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sleepy.... ugh....

AlexiA...shakened at 9/25/2003 10:07:00 PM

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Remember?

I remember something
It was one clear afternoon
I was on the bus

Where am I now?
I knew this place, been here before
But when? and I wasn't alone

Coffee, who's smell like this?
Ah, my eyes won't open....this touch
I remember, but who could that be?

I hear something...people
What is this? something warm just fell
Water? tears? but why?

I wanna see, I must know
There..., he's holding my hand
They're all smiling, but...who are you people?

I always wonder - kalo nonton film seringkali ketemu cerita yang pemerannya lupa ingatan or amnesia gitu.. gimana yah rasanya? Forget Everything! from families to friends, bahkan lupa sama kebiasaan sendiri, hobby, etc.... doesn't it sound horrible?

AlexiA...shakened at 9/25/2003 10:03:00 PM

Sunday, September 21

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people said im a bit anti social lately .. ya mungkin juga sih ..
masalahnya itu bukan gimana gue memandang proses sosialisasi .. tapi kepada makna dari itu semua ..
i`ve had my ups .. i`ve seen my downs .. dan benar2 mengecewakan melihat jumlah sahabat2 gue yang bertahan di masa down gue

dan bicara soal kehidupan `ups` gue .. gue jadi inget masa lalu ..
apa sih yang kita tau selain model baju .. cowo cakep and all those fucking glamours things?
apa yang ada di otak gue selain gosip, clubbing, cafe and mall? NOTHING!
dan di otak temen2 cowo gue itu isinya mobil, disko, bengkel, soundsystem, cewe and dugem

hm .. gini2 .. gue ga akan jadi cewe munafik dan bilang kalo gue ga enjoy those things .. i do ..
dan itu wajarkan untuk cewe seusia gue untuk menikmati keglamouran dan setiap hal yang WOW?
tapi di sisi lain .. gue juga ga mau jadi barbie yang cuma tajir dan cantik tapi ga punya intellegensia dan otak .. istilahnya tuh DUMB ASS!!

gue bukan tipe cewe dengan kehidupan sederhana .. gue suka barang bagus .. gue suka disanjung, dihormati, tapi gue juga bukan tipe cewe yang hidup dari outlook gue .. gue tau gue ga cantik .. not as pretty as some of them .. tapi gue juga bukan cewe yang kekurangan cowo kok .. lill bit to call them fans .. ya lemme put this way ..
kalo gue mo cari kesenangan doank .. gue bisa dapatin itu dengan mudah

dan jujur, itu membuat gue sombong dulu .. siapapun yang kenal gue masa2 gue smp sma dan awal2 kuliah gue .. selalu bilang gue tuh congkak .. geu cuma bergaul dengan orang2 terpilih .. FAMOUS ONE!
famous itu dalam artian cantik, atau keren, atau gaul atau powerful .. dengan satu kriteria umum .. TAJIR !!!
ga ada deh istilahnya gue bergaul dengan simple man and simple woman
gue sendiri tumbuh dewasa dengan satu percaya diri kalo gue tuh pinter .. and i allowed noone to make me feel bad about it .. nilai2 gue bukan excellent semua .. but still i know im very smart .. have brain and educated

gue ga punya banyak temen cewe .. mungkin karena dari kecil gue lebih suka bergaul dengan guyz kali ya .. total sahabat cewe gue dari dulu ampe skrg ga lebih dari 7 orang .. and most of them is a very glamour girl .. tipikal metropolitan banget deh !!
temen cowo gue banyak banget .. man come and go .. some stay and rotten in my heart

tapi yah getu .. they were friends on my ups
and no one really here on my downs
pathetic mungkin .. but thats the truth

so .. ga salah donk kalo gue mulai kehilangan bentuk dari persahabatan itu sendiri?
dan untuk leave my community .. jujur .. i wont do it

AlexiA...shakened at 9/21/2003 08:13:00 PM

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gue ga suka sendiri ..
tapi gue juga ga pengen bersosialisasi
gue benci sepi ..
tapi gue ga mau being on the crowd
tau lah ..
yang pasti .. i wont allow anything or anyone to touch the deep within me

AlexiA...shakened at 9/21/2003 02:37:00 PM

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Today Posting Mood

In a time
Where the sun descends alone,
I ran a long long way from home
To find a heart that's made of stone

I will try,
I just need a little time
To get your face right out of my mind,
To see the world through different eyes...

Tell me why?
When I scream there's no reply,
When I reach out there's nothing to find,
When I sleep I break down and cry?

Fading like a rose, fading like a rose, beaten by the storm,
Talking to myself, getting washed by the rain,
It's such a cold cold town...

taken from: fading like a flower by roxette

AlexiA...shakened at 9/21/2003 11:33:00 AM

Saturday, September 20

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net dudutz... down mulu ...

AlexiA...shakened at 9/20/2003 03:37:00 PM

Friday, September 19

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Deja Vu

Deja vu (btw, it's French), literally means "already seen", suatu kejadian atau apalah yang sepertinya sudah pernah dialami atau dirasakan sebelumnya..... that's called deja vu

Beberapa psychoanalysts mengatakan deja vu berhubungan dengan fantasy, sementara beberapa psychiatrists menyimpukan deja vu adalah sebuah mismatching in the brain yang menyebabkan the brain to mistake the present for the past, then many parapsychologists believe it is related to a past-life experience. Hmm.... mana yang bener nih?

Anyway, have you ever be in deja vu? Feels like.....Been There Done That

AlexiA...shakened at 9/19/2003 09:32:00 PM

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huehehe... maap ya teman teman...
baru sempat ngepost lagi...
soalna kemaren2 inet nya down mulu
La juga kesel sih sama cablevision...
masa La uda bayar billing mahal2 tapi yang didapet cuma kek gini... gimana ngga kesel ... sampe La protes ke cablevision telp ke sana... Ugh... bikin jengkel aja....
Uda pengen di aja tuh...

AlexiA...shakened at 9/19/2003 09:30:00 PM

Monday, September 15

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dooh... jam segini... ga isa bobo...
hiks....sebel...
phew... bloggie yg fallenstar background nya ilang...
lupa di simpen.. hiks... cape banged hari ini...
hummm....
monin' world....
sayah mao bobo dolo..
ciao..

AlexiA...shakened at 9/15/2003 03:42:00 AM

Saturday, September 13

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You are a narrative writer. Usually a writer of
stories rather than poetry, you grew up reading
Shakespeare's less popular and heard of plays--
like King Lear or the Henry series. Your
writing contains a certain order and
organization--be it chronological or otherwise.
If you are to write poetry, it has to convey a
logical (or perhaps unreal) story with some
sort of order behind it.

What's YOUR Writing Style?
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AlexiA...shakened at 9/13/2003 12:50:00 PM

Friday, September 12

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untuk setiap wanita yang pernah mencintai

satu hal, cinta bisa datang kapan saja, entah dipelupuk bayi dalam pelukanmu, dalam jerit tawa seorang lelaki sakit jiwa, atau waktu kau tersungkur lelah di pelukan bundamu
ya .. cinta bisa datang kapan saja .. tapi peduli kau suka atau kau memilih menghindarinya

tapi cinta juga bisa pergi kapan saja .. tak peduli telah menahun hidupnya bersamamu, tak peduli berapapun yang kau berikan, kemanapun kau bersamanya .. dan jika kau bersama seorang lelaki dan harus membuka mata dalam pagi yang menyakitkan.
saat kau harus tersadar dia bukan belahan jiwamu.

percayalah .. entah dimana, entah kapan, dan entah bagaimana .. akan tertanam subur cinta yang lain diantara hitungan waktu tak kembali
ya .. cinta bisa datang kapan saja

dan cintapun bisa berada bersamamu kapan saja .. saat kau kecup erat lelakimu ditengah badai,.. saat satu persatu binar matanya mulai menghilang terserap angin .. ya, cinta bisa bersamamu kapan saja

seorang berkata tak perlu berikan seluruh cinta. tapi cinta tak dapat ditakar dilogika dan ditimbang hanya cukup untuk dirinya, karena cinta hanya untuk cinta

dan cinta pun satu2nya hal yang akan datang .. buat matamu terkuak lebar, buat hatimu berdarah dengan senyum tersungging sinis ..

dimana cinta, bisa membuatmu memasuki dunia dimana kau akan menangis tanpa airmata, dan tertawa tanpa tersenyum

AlexiA...shakened at 9/12/2003 07:00:00 PM

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eyes lock across a crowded room
sparks fly
bodies move towards one another
swaying to the musci
unspoken words cross between them
happiness find its way into hearts
:-*

AlexiA...shakened at 9/12/2003 01:12:00 PM

Wednesday, September 10

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BIRUUUUUUU

AlexiA...shakened at 9/10/2003 11:04:00 PM

Tuesday, September 9

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buat lelaki diantara dunianya

saat engkau memejam .. aku pun menjauh ..
dan saat bibirmu terkatup .. maka kupalingkan mukaku dan pergi
agar kau tak tau
agar kau tak melihat
betapa ada duka menggenang di mataku
dan di setiap tangisku ada kepiluan
di setiap malamku ada luka yang menganga
bidadari ..
aku lah bidadari yang terluka oleh diammu ..
malaikat ..
aku lah malaikat yang tersiksa di antara sayapku ..
dan biarku pergi ..
setidaknya dengan harga diri seorang manusia

~for someone in my past~

AlexiA...shakened at 9/09/2003 10:01:00 PM

Friday, September 5

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Dosen tua itu bicara pada ku ..
Tentang "manusia itu pada dasarnya dilahirkan bagaimana?"
Apakah terlahir baik atau terlahir jahat ?

Satu lukisan kaligrafi china, ditunjukkan padaku

Lang.. yow kau.. you ti
Hai suei .. yi ciu ¡ se.. hai suei
Sheng huo .. yow ku .. yow le
Shin .. yi ciu.. se .. shin

Ombak ada tinggi ada rendah
Air laut tetap saja air laut
Kehidupan ada sedih ada gembira
Perasaan tetap saja perasaan

Lalu dia bicara : Ada satu perumpaan..
Tentang Perasaan Manusia ..katanya lagi
Seperti kita menulis di tiga macam media alam
"air yang mengalir"
"di pasir pantai "
"di pahat di batu yang keras"

Air .. katanya lagi : tulisan akan terus hilang .. terbawa dengan arus ..
Di pasir pantai : akan membekas sebentar dan kemudian tersapu dengan ombak ..
Di pahat di batu : akan terus terpahat disitu sampai mungkin batu itu berlumut..

Itu perasaan manusia,
Ada yang bisa menghadapi hidup dengan mengikuti arus.. mengalir.. hanyut tanpa bekas
Ada yang akan mengingatnya sebentar, menyimpannya dan kemudian melupakan..
Ada yang akan terus mengingatnya.. selama dia masih hidup, apakah itu menjadi kenangan manis atau malah dendam yang tidak pernah bisa dia lepaskan

Sekarang .. dimana kamu akan menulis dimana setiap perasaan yang ada?

(thanks for the poem, ling)

AlexiA...shakened at 9/05/2003 11:06:00 PM

I need a miracle

TURUT BERDUKA CITA atas meninggalnya papa dari Xiao_Yuan