[[It's Just Me]]

Saturday, November 29

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We all want to be happy, and we're all going to die. You might say those are the only two unchallengeably true facts that apply to every human being on this planet.

AlexiA...shakened at 11/29/2003 11:00:00 PM

Thursday, November 27

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MUSUH DALAM SELIMUT

AlexiA...shakened at 11/27/2003 10:59:00 PM

Wednesday, November 26

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nulis apa ya? err .. bingung juga sih ..
gini2 .. i just want you guyz to know .. that i do love my life (even, there was a time i mention a lotz of stupid things such as wanna kill myself, etc)
but let me underline this word .. I LOVE MY LIFE. Hidup gue ga sempurna .. sometimes, sucks things happened .. such as when i broke up with hilman, when i fail to go to china, when i have a fight with kaira .. or when i had an argument with my parents :) .. but like i said .. I LOVE MY LIFE :)
gue jauh dari sempurna .. im not as pretty as supermodel .. im not as smart as einstein .. im not as nice as mother theresa, ataupun as popular as britney spears
but i know im not just an ordinary girl .. I AM SPECIAL .. and I WILL ALWAYS BE SPECIAL

i have to admit that there was a time during my life when i feel like it is better for me to die, there was lotz of momentz when i really do think to commit suicide .. yah, life is not always have to be on the top of the world kan? but somehow .. seberat2nya itu, sesusah2nya itu .. here am i .. doing a great job .. eating the best food .. having a nice clothes .. isnt it wonderful?

people tend to judge that i have kinda boring life .. kinda pathetic mind .. (since i`ve had pretty serious heart break last time) ..
i do realize that im hurt .. (my friend used to say that knowing that you are hurt is the key point of having healing), i do realize that i am broken .. i do realize that im losing one of the most wonderful thing in my life .. but yet, im also realize that im still breathing .. there is no reason for me to cry all day long just to please my self ..
and it is not worthed to weep all nite just because of him..
hidup gue sendiri pun ga boring kok .. yah walaupun mungkin untuk orang2 yang ga suka sendirian, it may be sound absurd .. but still .. i love being lonely (only with my novels and teddy bear) ..

SO .. THIS IS MY LIFE .. AND I LOVE TO BE ME :)
AND IF YOU DONT LOVE ME .. THATS YOUR PROBLEM .. NOT ME

AlexiA...shakened at 11/26/2003 11:34:00 PM

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... cause love is the most pain, i `ve ever felt ..
... my heart is aching and my soul just melt ..

AlexiA...shakened at 11/26/2003 11:16:00 PM

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sumpah .. semalem gue bete banged .. padahal waktu gue ngepost postingan kemarin .. gue tuh dah janji ama diri gue sendiri kalo gue ga akan buat ANYTHING atau ANYONE to make me feel bad about myself .. but it turns up to be failed.
Alasannya itu simple .. karena *lagi2* gue ga merasa di appreciate .. hm .. lengkapnya better gue ga nulis, untuk menghindari ke-ga enakan gue ama orang itu, atau untuk menghindari senyum sinis pihak2 tertentu *jijay bajay capcay puyunghay ga si bahasa gue*, yah pokoknya begitulah .. semalem ampe gue nangis2 lagi .. *shit .. how many times i have promised myself not to cry about silly things again?!?!?!?!*
ya, yang bisa gue katakan pagi ini hanyalah .. jatuh sekali, bangun 2 kali .. MERDEKA !!!!
ok .. i wont start this day with all messed up feelins lagi .. :D, how u start yer day .. that is how you will end yer day

buat elo yang bikin gue bete semalem: hmm .. i wont argue with u again .. NEVER! sekarang terserah kamu deh mo kek gemana .. terserah .. do whatever u like ..

AlexiA...shakened at 11/26/2003 10:20:00 PM

Monday, November 24

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nokia 6600... memang keyeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnn

anyway thx deebu upload'in pict na

AlexiA...shakened at 11/24/2003 11:12:00 PM

Sunday, November 23

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Gambar Jorok

Peringatan:
Bagi yang belum berumur 17 tahun ke atas, sebaiknya tidak ikut2 melihat gambar jorok. Matikan komputer Anda, cuci kaki, sikat gigi, trus bobo.
Yang sudah 17 tahun ke atas, silahkan scroll ke bawah.

Bener nih, udah 17 tahun ke atas?

Hihihi... sapa suruh p*p di tempat umum.
Dipotret deh sama paparazzi.
Untung di atas daun kering, kalau di atas rumput ... 'KAN KELIATAN "KUE"NYA!
Jangan ngambek, lhooo ... ngomong2 situ cakep deh kalo lagi p*p!
;-P

AlexiA...shakened at 11/23/2003 11:20:00 PM

Saturday, November 22

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-ini bukan cerita, bukan pula puisi, .. ini cuma pemikiran, dalam kegilaanku yang meradang-

AlexiA...shakened at 11/22/2003 10:10:00 PM

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kenyataannya ..
setiap kalimat yang terkumandangkan tidak lah berarti banyak dalam mencabut akar - akar masa lampau
semangkuk darah dan sumsum yang tersaji di pinggan pinggan tidak jua bisa memuaskan keinginanku untuk menjeritkan tangis di kubur kubur bernama kenangan

seribu musim semi
seribu musim gugur
masih saja terpetakan nyata di imajiku ..
entah, sepertinya tiang tiang waktu yang mulai bungkuk karena tua tidaklah mampu memudarkan angan yang masih saja tersenyum melihat bintang bintang yang hampir pecah

ini siksaan,
ya ..
apalagi keberadaanmu di dunia ini serasa membuatku melihat neraca penimbang kedewasaan dan emosi diri
tapi toh apapun itu, aku tetap saja harus tenang .. bukankah begitu?
bahkan terhadap hantu hantu malampun aku sudah harus berhenti membisikkan banyak rahasia ..

lalu pada saat bulan mulai memilih mengatupkan matanya
aku pun harus bergegas mengatupkan kerongkonganku
supaya jangan ada tangis
ya, jangan ada lagi dua tiga isak yang hanya membuatku ditertawai pekat

ada yang berkata padaku .. "membenci adalah awal sebuah simpati"
dan tentunya butuh beratus - ratus lembar kesakitan untuk kemudian kujadikan suatu dasar argumen bahwa MEMANG aku membencimu
kurasa lebih mudah untuk mencari beratus - ratus cara untuk membuatku orgasme yang (mungkin) bisa kujadikan kesimpulan bahwa setidaknya aku PUNYA rasa untukmu ..

ada juga yang berkata .. "hati manusia seharusnya memiliki ruangan yang luas"
yah, mungkin benar kalau dikata hatiku memiliki banyak jendela .. tapi toh pada akhirnya aku lebih memilih untuk duduk santai diberanda .. menyulut satu dua batang marlboro, menyesap satu dua cangkir kopi .. mulai kemudian meneliti kemana angin bertiup .. melihat badai yang silih berganti memporak porandakan mawar mawar yang tertidur santai di pekarangan jiwaku

dan untuk yang memberiku ide bahwa hidup adalah sebuah jalan menuju pelabuhan terakhir di pangkuanNya ..
katakan, coba beri aku jawaban kemana aku harus melangkah .. kemana aku harus merambah jalan sementara peta terakhirku telah hancur dimakan ngengat

~for someone in my past~

AlexiA...shakened at 11/22/2003 10:07:00 PM

Thursday, November 20

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NUMB Linkin park

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow

Refrain
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart, right in front of you

Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow

And every second I waste is more than I can take

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

AlexiA...shakened at 11/20/2003 09:02:00 PM

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kamu tau kalau kamu mencintai seorang wanita, waktu kamu tidak pernah bisa berhenti memikirkannya
dia selalu ada di dalam pikiranmu seperti iklan di televisi yang tak dapat kau hindari
dan waktu ego mu mulai berkata padamu untuk segera melupakannya,
kau tetap menemukannya bersemayam di dalam mata pikiranmu

kamu akan tau kalau kamu mencintai seorang wanita jika hatimu sakit dan berdarah untuk setiap kerutan yang tertera di wajahnya
dan waktu kau melihat wanitamu dalam sedih dan dalam lara ..
yang kau inginkan hanyalah mengucap satu dua patah kata untuk membuat dia tersenyum kembali

kamu akan tau kalau kamu mencintai seorang wanita waktu wajahnya menjadi satu-satunya wajah yang kau inginkan ada di hadapanmu
waktu wajahnya menjadi yang terindah yang pernah ada walau dalam hatimu kau tau dia tak cantik dan tak istimewa
tapi tak ada sepasang mata lain yang lebih berbinar ..
dan tak ada bibir lain yang kau inginkan untuk kau cium

kamu benar2 mencintai seorang gadis waktu kamu mulai menyisahkan sedikit dari uangmu
waktu kamu pergi dan memperlakukannya seperti putri,
waktu kamu menabung untuk bersamanya
dan mulai memikirkan cara untuk menyenangkannya

kamu akan tau kalau kamu mencintai seorang gadis waktu kamu mulai menghargainya
waktu kamu memberinya rasa percaya, jujur dan terbuka terhadapnya
waktu kamu mulai mendengar apa yang dia katakan, dan tidak berusaha menyakitinya dengan memberikan pendapat yang berbeda
bukan karena kamu tidak boleh mempunyai pandangan lain,
tapi hanya karena kamu memperlakukannya dengan penghargaan yang sama

kamu akan tau kamu mulai mencintai seseorang waktu kamu mulai menepati janjimu,
dan waktu kamu mencintai ketika kamu melihat janji janji yang akan terwujud jika kalian bertahan

kamu benar2 mencintai seoarang gadis waktu kamu mulai melihat masa depan bersamanya
waktu kamu mulai melihat sosok ibu dari anak2mu di dalamnya
dan waktu kamu mulai melihat sosoknya waktu menggendong bayi di lengannya,
bayinya .. dan bayimu
waktu kamu tidak lagi memperdulikan apakah berat badannya akan bertambah
dan waktu keburukannya tidak lagi akan membuat apa apa berubah
dan dalam segala hal, kamu masih mau bersamanya

kamu jatuh cinta pada serang gadis ketika kamu mulai mengantarkannya pulang,
bukan karena kamu mau lebih banyak waktu lagi bersamanya
tapi waktu kamu mulai mengkhawatirkan keadaanya seorang diri

kamu tau kamu jatuh cinta ketika sehabis mengantarkannya pulang kamu mulai putus asa,
dan pikiranmu mulai membayangkan kapan kamu akan bersama sama dengan dia,
waktu kamu mencoba untuk tidak tidur sebelum dia tidur
karena kamu hanya ingin memeluk dia,
dan mencoba mengusir setiap gelisah dan mimpi buruknya

kamu tau kamu mulai jatuh cinta waktu kamu mulai romantis,
mulai mendengungkan lagu lagu cinta yang dulu begitu kamu benci
waktu kamu mulai menghargai puisi, dan mulai mencoret namanya di kertas-kertas sepanjang harimu
waktu kamu mulai memasukkan dia ke dalam hari-harimu,
ke dalam mimpi-mimpi mu, dan dalam rencana masa depanmu

kamu akan tau kamu mencintai seorang gadis waktu kamu merasa terluka waktu dia marah terhadapmu, tak peduli apakah kamu bersalah atau tidak
waktu kamu menempatkannya sebagai orang pertama untuk setiap berita baik yang ingin kau kabarkan
dan waktu dia menjadi orang pertama yang menjadi tempat mu berlindung,
waktu dia menjadi kuatmu, dan menjadi batu karangmu

dan kamu tau .. kamu benar2 mencintai seorang gadis ..
waktu kamu bangun dari tidurmu
dan menemukan kalau kamu tidak akan bertahan tanpanya

AlexiA...shakened at 11/20/2003 08:55:00 PM

Wednesday, November 19

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selamat tidur tubuhku ...
jangan hiraukan suara disekelilingmu
jangan takut karena malam akan menemani dalam setiap tarikan nafasmu
rembulan akan menjaga tidur lelapmu
bintang akan menyertai dalam mimpi indahmu
jangan takut karena cahaya akan menyambut bangun pagimu
dengan warna pelangi menyinari harimu
jangan takut ...
karena penguasa alam akan melindungi dalam setiap detak jantungmu...

semoga beban hari ini akan hilang di esok hari...

AlexiA...shakened at 11/19/2003 10:44:00 PM

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...Numb

AlexiA...shakened at 11/19/2003 10:38:00 PM

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Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 - Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 - Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 - Beech Tree
Dec 23 to Dec 31 - Apple Tree

APPLE TREE (Love) - of slight build, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, scientific talents, lives for today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.

ASH TREE (Ambition) - uncommonly attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be egotistic, very reliable and trustworthy, faithful and prudent lover, sometimes brains rule over the heart, but takes partnership very seriously.

BEECH TREE (Creative) - has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.)

BIRCH TREE (Inspiration) - vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly,pretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

CEDAR TREE (Confidence) - of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others,self-confident, determined, impatient, likes to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

CHESTNUT TREE (Honesty) - of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat, but irritates easily and sensitive in company, often due to a lack of self confidence, acts sometimes superior, feels not understood, loves only once, has difficulties in finding a partner.

CYPRESS TREE (Faithfulness) - strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give, content, optimistic, craves money and acknowledgment, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered, unruly, pedantic, and careless.

ELM TREE (Noble-Minded) - pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, loudest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

FIG TREE (Sensibility) - very strong, a bit self-willed,independent, does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family, children and animals, a bit of a social butterfly, good sense of humor, likes idleness and laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.

FIR TREE (Mysterious) - extraordinary taste, dignity, sophisticated, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to them, rather modest, very ambitious, talented, industrious, uncontested lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable.

HAZELNUT TREE (Extraordinary) - charming, undemanding, very understanding, knows how to make an impression, active fighter for social cause, popular, moody, and capricious lover, honest, and tolerant partner, precise sense of judgment.

HORNBEAM TREE (Good Taste) - of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

LIME TREE (Doubt) - accepts what life dishes out in a composed way, hates fighting, stress, and labor, dislikes laziness and idleness, soft and relenting, makes sacrifices for friends, many talents but not tenacious enough to make them blossom, often wailing and complaining, very jealous but loyal.

MAPLE TREE (Independent) - no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.

OAK TREE (Brave) - robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.

OLIVE TREE (Wisdom) - loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

PINE TREE (Particular) - loves agreeable company, very robust, knows how to make life comfortable, very active, natural, good companion, but seldom friendly, falls easily in love but its passion burns out quickly, gives up easily, everything disappointments until it finds its ideal, trustworthy, practical.

POPLAR TREE (Uncertainty) - looks very decorative, not very self-confident, only courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

ROWAN TREE (Sensitivity) - full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

WALNUT TREE (Passion) - unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

WEEPING WILLOW (Melancholy) - beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner

AlexiA...shakened at 11/19/2003 12:03:00 AM

Sunday, November 16

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i`m tired .. so fucking tired ..
so why dont you just lemme have a rest dear ..
why you keep spit at my soul ..
shattering all my pride ..
can i just get a lill smile during this fucking things ..
or the demon inside you just wont quit till i die in vain ?

~for someone in my past~

AlexiA...shakened at 11/16/2003 01:24:00 AM

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bukankah pada dasarnya love is unconditional ?
kenapa banyak org yang dengan begitu mudahnya bilang love dan disisi lain dengan begitu mudahnya hurt the one that they love .. ? atau bahkan easily forget dengan apa yang dulu mereka agungkan
apakah emang cinta yang salah?
apakah kemajuan jaman?
ataukah manusia yang salah mengartikan cinta?
dan dimana cinta?
adakah dia?
atau itu hanya suatu yang dikarang manusia untuk melampiaskan nafsunya?

AlexiA...shakened at 11/16/2003 01:03:00 AM

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im a blue blue girl ..
live on this blue blue world ..
who will hear me .. when i cry?

AlexiA...shakened at 11/16/2003 12:57:00 AM

Saturday, November 15

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A materialistic and shopaholic prayer

Armani, Which art in Hermes,
Hallowed be thy Gucci.
Thy Cartier watch, Thy Prada bag,
On Rodeo, as it is in Tiffany's.
Give us this day our Visa Titanium
And forgive us this overdraft,
As we forgive those who decline our Mastercard.
Lead us not into Harrods,
And deliver us from Sears.
For thine is the Chanel, the Gaultier, and the
Versace,
For Dolce and Gabana...

Amex ...

AlexiA...shakened at 11/15/2003 11:27:00 PM

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Watcha lookin' at!?!?!
Anjing bete

AlexiA...shakened at 11/15/2003 11:25:00 PM

Tuesday, November 11

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KOKO KU BETE

tadi koko awei bete... *GOSH*
binun... sampe selba salah mo ngomong apa....
soalna biasana ga pelna bete n ngambek hoaaaaaaa
kapan2 gue ambil gambarnya deh kalo dia lagi bete...weks
menyelamkaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...
kokooooooo jangan bete bete atuuuuh :(( cedih...

AlexiA...shakened at 11/11/2003 12:04:00 AM

Monday, November 10

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if u say that u cannot go on
cause love making u cryin`
and u say that all ur hope is gone
what u need is to have some faith
shake off those sad blues .. get urself a new view
nothing is as sad as it seems
cause someday ..
u`ll laugh at a heart-ache
u`ll smile at the pain
somehow u get through your heartbreak
the world is gonna turn around
so dont be blue
all it takes is a little time to make it better ..
teh hurt wont last forever ..
all the tears are gonna dry ..
u may be down on ur luck
but like a wheel
ur live will chance

is it true that time heals? yes it is ..
just keep hoping .. that tomorrow will be better ..

AlexiA...shakened at 11/10/2003 11:59:00 PM

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= One Heart With Many Scars =
left in a loneliness

AlexiA...shakened at 11/10/2003 11:33:00 PM

Sunday, November 9

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too much pain..
too many tears..
i'm tired..

AlexiA...shakened at 11/09/2003 10:13:00 PM

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i can feel sad..
i can feel happy..
i can feel pain..
i can feel joy..
because i'm human..
but when i can't feel anything..
am i still human ?

rasanya gue butuh transplantasi otak..
atau mungkin hati dan perasaan kalau memang itu bisa di ganti..

rasanya gue butuh untuk lebih mencintai diri gue sendiri..
kemarin gue terlalu banyak mencintai orang lain..
dan sia-sia..
karena itu cuma bikin gue sakit..

rasanya gue butuh untuk lebih konsentrasi pada hal-hal sepele yang gue lakukan..
karena gue selalu kepikiran sama masalah-masalah gue..
dan itu cuma bikin gue sedih..

rasanya..
gue ngga tau buat apa gue nulis ini semua..
semuanya pointless, useless, worthless..

GUE PUSING !!
GUE MUAK !!
GUE CAPEK !!
TAPI GUE NGGA TAU MUSTI GIMANA !!
DAMN !!!

AlexiA...shakened at 11/09/2003 10:08:00 PM

Saturday, November 8

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+what genre of anime best suits you?+*<
brought to you by Quizilla

AlexiA...shakened at 11/08/2003 10:17:00 PM

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I'm moving on with my life
I know u do the same thing too
Don't want to bother you neither your life
But I think I just can't keep this any longer

I miss you and I even miss you more each day
It's hurt...

~for someone~

AlexiA...shakened at 11/08/2003 09:37:00 PM

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Eh baca deh, lucu

JUNGLISH (JUNGLE ENGLISH)
What is Junglish? Jungle English..like one mentioned below:

Javelish.. The typical Javanese language: 'lho', 'lha', 'tho', 'kok', 'ki', etc
-Lho, I already bought that book !
-Kok, buying again ?
-I told you many times 'tho' !
-Lha, I didn't know ... how ki !?
-Don't be like that, no....!?

Jakartenglish ? Jakarte English is marked by the 'sih', 'deh', 'dong', 'nih', etc
-That book is very good, deh.
-Can you speak english?.. yeah a little sih I can!
-Use my money first nih..
-Give me more dong..
-How sih? Little little angry..

Surobenglish is marked by 'tah' and the famous word is 'diancuk'
-"No fuc***g good" ... is pronounced by arek Suroboyo using "No diancuk good"!
-Do you feel sick, tah ?

Other exclamation words of Java : 'wo_', 'wah', 'wÃ©_', 'jian', and 'jÃ©_'
-WÃ©_ lha this book is mine jÃ©...!
-Wo_, only like that tho!
-Wah, expensive, tho?
-Jian, Paijem is so beautiful tenan.

Sundanglish is also available such as 'atuh', 'euy', 'mah'
-Well, if that kind, it pretty so-so atuh
-It can't be that way euy..
-I am mah, not like that... anything else ?

There are also abundant 'sound effect' in Javanesse language.
-Suddenly, mak bedhengus den Tukiman appeared
-My head feels pain, mak cleng!
-Mak tlepok, I got a manggo !
-My chicken is suddenly died, mak cekengkeng
-Mak gedebug, KampretÃ© fell down.
-Mak jegagik.... Oh, trondholo !

AlexiA...shakened at 11/08/2003 09:23:00 PM

Friday, November 7

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Women want a man who:

Can make them think.

Can make them feel excitement, sexy, and turned on rather than bored.

Can prioritize his life and doesn't let anyone walk over him.

Is not afraid to voice his opinion.

Keeps them on their toes through challenge.

Holds and maintains an element of mystery.

Is spontaneous.

Gives them space and freedom, and keeps his own space.

Is a lover, not a son.

Is a Romeo, not a Fabio.

Is chivalrous.

AlexiA...shakened at 11/07/2003 10:32:00 PM

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THOUGHTS ON LIFE

Focus on what you do have,not on what you don't.
appreciate the peace and quiet of today,because someday soon,you won't.
realise that life's struggles create wisdom,
there's a reason why everyone has their own cross to bear.
You must experience some hardships to progress.
only the weak live without a care
strive towards your ultimate person
live each and everyday to the fullest
embrance everything that is good in this world
and distance yourself from cruelest.
take the time to get know yourself
establish your strengths,weaknesses,aspirations,and goals.
understand that you do have a special place in this life.
keep an open heart and mind while waiting forr your call
stop,look, and listen to the beauty of your existence
learn to relax from time to time
remember that you will only be this age once...
and no matter what age it is you,you can choose to be in your prime
commit to loving it all
take the bad along with the good
take special care of the relationships you were blessed with
concentrate on being child,parent,friend that you should
believe that you can be trully happy
no matter what setbacks may arise
get back on your feet,and keep climbing to the top
Because....
you're ALIVE

AlexiA...shakened at 11/07/2003 09:25:00 PM

Thursday, November 6

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hali ini gue pegi jalan2 ama koko ....
Hummm... yap... tapi ada kejadian ga enak di lumah koko...
menyebalkan.. ah jadi rada bete sih...
besok mo pegi lagi ah ama koko... abis sekalang yg care ama gue cuma koko
itulah enak na punya koko sepupu yang jomblo
hwahahaha....

AlexiA...shakened at 11/06/2003 10:33:00 PM

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I've been stuck in my head lately and never seem to have anyone to talk to about it. I could always scream

AlexiA...shakened at 11/06/2003 09:40:00 PM

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When God
is your matchmaker
He has just as much fun
as you do

AlexiA...shakened at 11/06/2003 09:35:00 PM

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Hal2 yang didambakan perempuan dari kaum lelaki!

1. Jangan Membohongi kami, kami SELALU tau!
2. Jika kalian sedang bt, kami akan selalu menganggap itu semua kesalahan kami, karena itu .. KATAKAN apa yang membuat kalian terganggu
3. Berhentilah mengeluh, PERBAIKI apa yang salah
4. BELILAH pakaian2 yang pantas kalian pakai
5. PERHATIKANLAH bahasa2 isyarat kami, ketahuilah bahwa kami sangat jarang mengemukakan maksud kami secara langsung
6. ya benar, kadang kala kami menelepon tanpa merasa harus bicara apapun, BIASAKAN dirimu dengan itu!
7. CIUMAN tidak boleh dihentikan!
8. Jika kalian bertanya ada apa dan kami menjawab tidak ada apa-apa ... BERTANYALAH lagi, dan pastikan kali ini kalian menanyakannya dengan sepenuh hati
9. Jika kami mengutarakan sesuatu, pastikan kalian MENANGGAPI .. setidaknya dengan menganggukan kepala
10. Jika sedang tidak ada orang di rumah, berdirilah di muka cermin dan berlatihlah mengucapkan kata-kata ini .. "AKU SALAH'
11. Jika sudah mahir, lanjutkan dengan kata "MAAFKAN AKU!"

*Cheryl Lavin, Chicago Tribune*

AlexiA...shakened at 11/06/2003 12:47:00 AM

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Sniffing, digging...keep digging...Sounds familiar?
Yep, that's me, sniffing around, like a dog looking for something interesting.
I am learning html bit by bit. I know, I know my page is still plain, *blank* as you may want to call it, but I'm hanging there. As the Indonesian saying goes, "Bit by bit, it will pile up like a mountain", so there is the explanation about me gathering the knowledge I am learning, which I hope, it'll be stored in my brain for long-term use

AlexiA...shakened at 11/06/2003 12:01:00 AM

Monday, November 3

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1.The most important thing about a secret crush is that it stay secret. Super secret! Super DOUBLE secret! Super TRIPLE secret!
2. You can't tell anyone!Not even your best friend!
3. And especially not the person you have the secret crush on.
4. You have to act natural around your crushee.Don't giggle. Don't go weak in the knees. Don't blush. And don't fog up your bubble helmet. (WAIT!! FORGET I SAID THAT LAST PART!!)

AlexiA...shakened at 11/03/2003 11:58:00 PM

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taraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... toew toew...
apaan tuw ?
hoahaha tebaaaaak... kenapaaa
tadi jam setengah 11 malem gue buete buanged ,
tlus pengen pelgi... (mumpung tante ga di lumah nih)
tlus tadina mo ajak cc aling... cuma dia na susah kelual...
mo ajak deebu sayangna dia jauh .. hiks
akhilna jam 11.30 malem koko awei jemputin (gue yg suluh sih)
pelgi en pulangna ajah mengendap endap kek maling abisna tatut pembokat bangun sih (padaal lumah sendili)
hiahahaha *meringis* ini balu aja pulang...
cenengna punya koko pengeltian *peyuk2 koko plematul*
untung gue punya koko baiiiiik aaaaaaa ceneng deh..
dah ah... cekalang mo bobo...
tatataaaa duniaaaaah....

AlexiA...shakened at 11/03/2003 04:11:00 AM

Sunday, November 2

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Can I save another tap...I'm so dry
dragged my limbs...go limp in every try...
I can just lay here under the sky...
smell the earth... feel like going high...
I dont want to move... light is so aloof...
I'm outta strength to prove...
bury me, Sands like a roof...
Thank of my time...thank of my earth...
just save another tap... of a painful birth...

AlexiA...shakened at 11/02/2003 07:48:00 PM

A materialistic and shopaholic prayer

Watcha lookin' at!?!?!*Anjing bete*

Watcha lookin' at!?!?!
Anjing bete