[[It's Just Me]]

Thursday, July 31

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its been a cold night
and i can`t get u outta my mind
God knows i`ve tried
i did throw away the best part of my life
when i cut off, i cut myself with the same damn knife
hide my tears in the pouring rain
had my share of hurt and pain
i cried .. and i wish they let me go!

How can we face this
Challenge alone....And death, so imminent ...
A prayer whispered softly,God, please wont You help me,
Keep my head up...When Im drowning in pain
Hold my hand, please, Lord.
A bird at my window,Sings a song
to remind me...That God is listening
And hope is not lost.
So I will hold on one more day
Sometimes just one hour.
I will tell myself God cares,
And Im not alone.

even God knows how much it hurts me inside ..

AlexiA...shakened at 7/31/2003 11:24:00 PM

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GA TAUUUUUUUUUUUUU
SEBEEEEEEEEEEEEEL
BEETEEEEEEEEE

AlexiA...shakened at 7/31/2003 12:48:00 AM

Wednesday, July 30

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Hiks...
KANGEEEEEEEEENNNNNNN

AlexiA...shakened at 7/30/2003 07:10:00 PM

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kutunggu kau disini,
kucoba hadirkan bayangmu,
tak kuasa kutahan rinduku
yang gerogoti jiwaku ..

hatiku diamlah
jangan bicara lagi
jangan buat mata ini merah lagi
jangan buat ia mengalirkan air lagi
diam lah sayang
tenanglah....

AlexiA...shakened at 7/30/2003 05:20:00 PM

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Ya Tuhan ku....
perjalananku
belum genap menghitung mentari seperempat abad
namun deru kehidupan telah cukup menghempas tubuh letih
kian tak bertenaga
aku ingin pulang Tuhan
mendekap malam dalam kedamaian
aku ingin pulang Tuhan
adakah mata angin menunjukkan ku arah
bawa aku pulang ke rumah-Mu

AlexiA...shakened at 7/30/2003 12:24:00 AM

Tuesday, July 29

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BOSAN!
kadanng kebosanan ini membuat aku luluh pada kehidupan
membuat aku pasrah pada takdir
membuat aku layu pada kekeringan
aku tak mampu berbuat apapun untuk mengenyahkan kebosanan ini
aku tak mampu bangkit... tertunduk disini...
disisi kehidupan yang tak bertepi
disisi kehidupan yang terlalu banyak keegoisan...
aku bosan seperti ini...
aku ingin terbang seperti bidadari,peri dan seperti burung...

IF I DIE.... DOES ANYONE CARE ????

AlexiA...shakened at 7/29/2003 10:30:00 PM

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dan aku terus mencari ..
sampai aku menemukan ..
cuma dimana ?
dan kapan ?
aku tidak tau ..
mungkin sampai aku mati ..
mungkin pula besok ..

AlexiA...shakened at 7/29/2003 10:15:00 PM

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if i love you,
promise me you will love me too
so the share would be equal
and the foundation will stand strong

promise me you will never leave me
I just dont want to fall down too short
and left alone with noone beside

promise me that you will do your best
not to be perfect, but simply to accept
cause i just dont want to play it alone

and if you love me,
promise me that it will be forever ..
growing old together ..
cause i dont want to gamble too much

~for: someone in my heart~

AlexiA...shakened at 7/29/2003 09:15:00 PM